Dear blog,
I'm writing this entry now with a very heavy heart.
I don't know where to start actually cause there's really too much that I want to say. Yesterday on my way to celebrate my birthday, I had a car accident. Never mind about the details but thank god that no one was hurt and there was no really big damage on both sides. I didn't know what to do at all and wanted to cancel my thing straight away but my dad told me to just go when I called him. In my heart I know that my parents are very worried and upset but yet they didn't want to spoil my day at all. With the mood like this, no matter how nice the chocolate buffet taste, the view on marina bay sands skypark that I always wanted to go see and the only company that I though of spending the last few hours with, it really doesn't matter to me anymore.
If there's anything good coming out from this accident, its that it happened right before I turn 21 and it taught me a really valuable lesson that sadly I learnt it through the hard way. I can't describe how bad the first few hours after turning 21 is and I never thought from such a happy occasion will have such a total 180 degree change. It really feels like shit when everyone is wishing you happy birthday and all that but yet you know yourself that its really not a joyous occasion anymore. I don't even know if I want to reply even. But anyways I just really hope in the future whenever I read back on this entry, I'll remember all the emotions last night and that family and god are the most important things to me.
I guess its time for me to really grow up and be like an adult now, or I should say that the time has already come. The lesson learnt will be the biggest present that I will ever receive and I hope it really stays with me throughout. Lastly it feels weird saying this but still I just want to say, happy 21st birthday to myself.
Ben.
Dear blog,
I always feel that there's no party in this world that does not end.
2 months have past so fast and I'm going to be posted out yet again. Remember the last time when I said I thought I would end up in the air force? Yea now I'm really in the air force in some capacity one way or another. When I first enter Military Police training school I told myself that I don't really need to make good friends with the people there cause I know sooner or later we'll all get split up like time and time again. But somehow inevitably I got to know a few friends that were actually in the same company as I am since Bmt and Scs but we didn't know each other at all then, and now we are quite good friends. But like I mentioned we're all now separated, posting to different places with one staying back in MPTS, one in navy and me in air force. From stepping out of the camp yesterday and walking to the mrt station back, I was just thinking about the day when I first arrived here, the trainings we had and the motto "Pride, Discipline, Honour" that I might not have the chance to shout again. As usual I will always have this feeling that I somewhat cannot explain.
Anyways out of boredom last night I decided to look through friendster (yes friendster, not facebook) and read through all my old testimonials I received from friends. While reading, my mind seem to be like a time machine which brought me back to the time when all the stuffs happened that's written on the testimonials. I can't help but to smile to myself, be it at all the lousy english shortcuts that we liked to use then or at the things that we wrote. I always like the feeling of reminiscing the past. I realised as we grow up the fun we have gets different and different and I miss those plain old simple fun we used to had. On a side note, a few weeks ago I read that friendster is going through a revamp or something and I'm looking forward to see what's going to be new. Maybe I'll go back to using friendster then and facebook will be a thing of the past which I told a friend some years back. We shall see.
Ben.