Friday, June 29, 2007 8:30 PM;
TRANSFORMERSLet me talk about yesterday and today's paper first. ITAB's a gone case. I didnt do the last 50% of the paper, and u cant expect me to get full marks for the first 50%. So.. i guess its a confirm fail. Haha. But its ok, i feel that i deserve it. Then today's MOB paper. It was quite alright, except the fact that many stuffs i studied didnt come out. But i managed to do most of the questions. After the test paper was collected, i can feel my cheeks lifting up. Unknowingly, i was smiling like an idiot and looking around. And i guess someone saw me.
Ok, now about Transformers. Kayhwa and me went to watch it yesterday after ITAB paper. It was
so random. We were just walking around until we walked past the cinema and this was how it went.
Kay: Hey want watch movie ma?
Me: Eh, today Transformers first day hor. We go watch that la.
Kay: Ok.
Hmm.. maybe it doesnt sound so random here. But if u were one of us at that moment, u will find it simply incredible. Out of the sudden he ask if i wanted to watch a movie and me without even thinking, straight away said Transformers. Plus we still have one last paper the next day. After we bought the tickets, i thought to myself "WTF?!? Did we just agreed to watch a movie?!?" LOL. We were so on la. Haha. And i didnt regret giving up time to study just to catch this movie. It was damm nice la.
This movie is damm cool. The effects, the graphics, the sounds, the action, and EVERYTHING. They make Transformers look damm real. It was good that they make this movie 2 hours and 15 mins long, cause i think everyone just cant get enough of the action. Some parts of the movie are comical too, even when during some serious scenes funny dialogs will suddenly pop up. And nope, they're not lame, just downright funny. Only thing that i dont like about the movie is that they change away some of the Transformers' designs. For example, Megatron was supposed to be a handgun but turn out to be a cybertronian jet. And most of the Transformers in the movie are either some sort of a car, or a plane. Too many of that makes u hard to differentiate between a normal vehicle and a Transformer. Lol. Overall, the movie is great! The fighting scenes and sound effects awesome! I think guys will like this movie, not sure bout girls though. And i'll definitely catch it again if i can.
So what are u waiting for? Autobots, lets roll out.
Wednesday, June 27, 2007 4:25 PM;
Exam rust.
After 6 months of playing around and not really studying, it was time to get down to business. And i realise that i can only study one day before any exam. If its a few weeks or days before the test, i will normally sit down study for 5 mins.. then stand up and walk around the house. I cant stay put. If its one day before, i can study much better and things will get into my head. Why did i put exam rust up there? Let me tell u the stupid and dumb things i done over these few days.
Monday- The first paper since after the Os. When i just stepped out of the train from dover Kayhwa called me and ask me where was i, cause the paper was starting soon. So i ran till the exam room and saw some of my classmates waiting outside. Then i was thinking where is the rest of the class. Since they were waiting outside, i decided to wait outside too. And the small group of us were happily chatting outside. After 10 mins, we realised everyone else was in the room already, taking the test. When i went into the room, i felt like dashing out of the window and jump down. HOW CAN WE BE SO STUPID!!! Lol. Luckily Yilong went to open the door and saw the rest of the class inside. If not god knows how long we will be outside waiting. zZz
Tuesday- Stupid me have to gulp down a cup of chinese drink before leaving the house. And by the time the paper started, i can feel that my bladder is full. So for the rest of the 1 hour paper, i was trying to focus and do the paper with a freaking bladder which is about to burst.
Wednesday- This incident actually happened on tuesday night, but it was sure to affect wednesday's paper
TOTALLY. I was chatting with Luke on msn around 9 plus. Then suddenly he told me he got to go study already. But i told him that we still have the whole of next day to study for the paper. It was then that i realised i have mistaken the time of wed's paper. The paper starts at 11.30 but i wrote it down as 3.15. LOL. Worst part was i told Syakir and Kayhwa the wrong time too. Thank god Luke told me the correct time and i managed to message them. By the time i know my mistake, it was 10 already. Didnt even have much time to revise. zZz. Wonder what will happen if i didnt found out the mistake and went to school at 3. Hmm..
Gosh. So do u feel how dumb and stupid i am after reading what happen these few days. Lol. And just 3 days of paper i feel as tired as i was during the Os. But there's just 2 more papers to go, so i'll persevere! Wait.. tomorrow's ITAB paper, which is microsoft excel. Oh fuck
3 knocks on the door but there's noone there.
This is what's happening now...
Saturday, June 23, 2007 1:30 PM;
Holidays are coming to an end. Unfortunately, the goals i set and the things i want to get done during this holiday did not go the way i wanted. No its not just 1 or 2 things, its
all. Damm it
Before the holiday started, i planned to use the holiday to study. As in like
REALLY study. I guess its about time i study hard, since for the past few years i didnt really do so. Trust me, even for O level i didnt put in my 100%. After the Os, i was kinda worried about my results. Well, that's what u can expect from someone who got 30 plus points for R4 during mid year. Told my dad about it and he scolded me for realising my mistake so late. Thank god when my result came, they were ok. Then my dad told me this, "I think god gave u this good result as a second chance, so u better well not disappoint god and study hard for poly." I was shocked when i heard this, cause my dad is not those really into god and stuffs. But i guess he was kinda right.
2 weeks of holidays just went past like this. Its been 2 months since school first started. i still remember the night before the orientation, i didnt want to go for the orientation. I didnt want to move on. In the end, orientation was pretty alright. But the people now, are far from the ones I know during orientation 2 months ago. Their true colours are starting to come out. Haha
And as for that previous post, i think i'm ok for now. Dont worry people. Just that when i'm at home i'll tend to think alot. Then when i'm out with friends, i'm totally fine. Here comes the problem, i cant be out with friends all the time, because i have to study. Lol. Speaking of study, i better get started with my revision already. Wont be touching my com for at least a few days, i hope. (:
Tuesday, June 19, 2007 11:15 AM;
A few more hits, and i'm going down already. I'm sure to sink if it continues.
Its happening again.
Whatever i plan to do, its sure to fail.
Even planning to have a simple meal with friends is also so hard.
Why isn't there someone, anyone that will be there.
To hear my complaints, whining, nagging about this assholic ass world and the frustrations i have.
Friends.- Friends forget about each other, sooner or later.
Even the closest of friends, will fight against one another. What's more enduring the test of time.
Nothing is forever, nothing is what it seems.
Old friends are busy with new ones, new friends are occupied with old ones.
Then what are we left with?
Haha. Lets be strangers. It would be fun.
I guess it would be better if i don't give a damm bout anything and just be a normal student that i am and study. Like average singaporean students and study like there's no tomorrow cause there is nothing else better for them to do. Want to update about the past few days, but i really don't have the mood. Sorry people.
*Cause all of the stars,
Have faded away
Just try not to worry,
You'll see them some day
Just take what you need,
And be on your way
You'll never change what's been and gone*
Thursday, June 14, 2007 4:45 PM;
Went back Orchid Park today for choir practice. Alumni choir practice that is.
It was good to see the seniors and ex seniors there. Ah its been a long time since i saw some of them, like a year ago. Warm up was kinda awkward. Haha. Then practice some of the old songs which our sound was far far behind the standard in the past. Its been like 1, 2 year that some of us last sang, so naturally our vocal is not there yet. But its good, being lead, just like in the past. Makes me feel like being back in sec3 where the sec4 seniors would guide us and the sec2s. In a blink of an eye, the sec2s are sec4s already and its time for them to be the seniors and guide the younger ones. 2 hour practice was kinda short. But we'll see each other tomorrow again, and again next tue. (:
Rushed home after practice, took the things and went off. Poof just like that. Haven even take my lunch. O well.
只要你能愉快Monday, June 11, 2007 11:59 PM;
Lets list them out.
1) Basketball today was not too bad.
2) Gym was tough.
3) Didnt do much revision.
4) Tried to do ITAB but failed.
5) Feel like killing myself.
6) Everyone seems to be busy these days.
7) Going out alone tomorrow.
8) I really need
you.
Dont feel like going out tomorrow, but i know i have to. Holidays just started and i'm already miss going to school. I miss every morning where i just stand by the mrt door and daydream. Have to really study hard this holiday, if not i'm dead. Hey giving up on ITAB wouldnt kill me right. And no i dont mean giving up on ITAB in my nick. Losing hope in everything again, but its much better then the previous time. At least there's still the nice guy. But the bad guy's coming real soon. I knew it was too good to be true, you. But lets see how it goes. Only hope that i'm clinging on, its that day.
Saturday, June 9, 2007 4:56 PM;
Basketball today was bad, at least for me. My performance sucks. Enough said.
Had a dream last night. It cheered me up. I was in all smiles when i woke up today. How i wish the things in the dream can happen. If it really does, i will be the happiest guy ever. I had another similar dream before, that made me happy too. But in the end, in reality, that thing in the dream didnt happen. They say dreams are opposite to reality, but i had many dreams that really happened. Deja vu. The happy feeling now is not as strong as i just woke up. Anyways i just hope that the thing in my dream will happen in reality.
Started blogging from 12 till now. Kept retyping everything over and over again. I got many things to say but i think noone will understand anyways so i decided to just do a short post.
Cheer up girl. Cause i miss that voice.
Wednesday, June 6, 2007 6:50 PM;
Ok i recovered from my sore throat and flu already. (:
BUT, now i have cough. Kept coughing since this morning. I hope its not because of the ice cream i ate yesterday. Haha. IDEAS can literally take my breath away on monday. Climbing up 5 storeys to class. zZz. Many people are falling sick these few days too, like Kayhwa and Vivian. So please take care of yourselves people.
Ahhh i want to go for the primers night cycling event!!! But i have chalet on the same day, and some more we're going to have bbq on that night. Damm. I really really want to go for the night cycling. Even thought i'm not much of a cyclist, but i think its fun cycling from midnight to the wee hours of the morning. Anyways term break is coming and i realised i have many things to do. Other polys are having their CAs right now, before the term break while we have ours straight after we come back. So top priority is to study for CA during this holiday. Next is sentosa trip with S2 peeps. We've been postponing the trip since sec4 till now, so i think its about time we go. Haha
Saw Ben, my basketball teammate at Katib mrt just now. Yes, his name is Ben too. Lol. We're in the same school but i didnt see him in SP ever since i went in. Haha. Too bad i had to buy something and walk another way, if not we can walk home together and chat. Haven't seen him in ages. But anyways, we agreed on basketball this saturday. (:
Did something dumb just now. It was such a stupid act. Felt like shooting myself in the head at that very moment. Argh. I feel so stupid. O well.. that's me.
Sunday, June 3, 2007 3:28 PM;
Dammit. I'm sick.
Was sick a few weeks ago and now again. Cant sleep through it this time. Having a very bad sore throat. Hurts like hell whenever i eat or drink. There's the irritating flu too. O man, i'm feeling very tired. Even after sleeping from the whole morning to now. I think i mistook sleeping pills as medicine. Lol. I have yet to do any tutorial or revision yet. Damm. I hope i will be able to go to school tomorrow. But i think gym training is most likely off. Ok i go sleep already, again.
ZzZ..
Friday, June 1, 2007 11:59 PM;
Had alot fun at sentosa yesterday for Primers cluster activity. During dinner, Steven shared his story with Kayhwa and me. He said one sentence that struck me quite hard. It make me realised something very important. On the way back, i kept pondering and pondering over it.
I have alot of stuffs to think about. Is it the right time to say? I'm afraid that it might be too fast, but then again if i wait, i'm afraid it will be too late. Even if i convinced myself to say, what will happen after that? What will happen after everything's over? Now i know that i been so stupid in the past. I only care about what i want. I never thought about the consequences. Now that i realised it, i dont know what i should really do. The things u done make me think this way, but i'm afraid that it might turn out another way. Girl, i know u will be reading this. So please tell me what i should do cause i really dont know. I'm a dumb guy, i cant seem to catch hints. If its what u've been doing.
I think i can only avoid the problem for now. Until i am sure of what to do. Give me time to clear my head. Give me time..