Wednesday, February 28, 2007 2:55 PM;
Wrote something last night but it was a stupid post so deleted it away.
Anyways, was going through my old stuffs when i stumbled upon some old foolscape papers. The first thing i saw on the papers were drawings of pigs. Naturally, memories came back and i remember what were they. This is going to be a long and boring post bout my past just to warn u.
The year was when i was just promoted to sec3 and got into class 3S2. I still remember i sat at the last seat of the second row nearest to the backdoor. Beside me was Siew shen and Michelle. As u know my 3 other best friends were all separated to different classes and Dixon that group were also in different class from me. I wasnt really close to Cheng fa that time too so i was almost like a newcomer to that class. Only close friends i have that time were Shiping and Amanda. But still i was more comfortable hanging out with guys last time. Ok so first few weeks of sec3 i was pretty quiet until Michelle started talking to me. As time passes we grw much closer and i was always hanging out with Cheryl and her. Siew shen was very quiet last time so did not talk much to him. Ya as i was saying Michelle sat next to me so we would always pass notes to each other in class. We would ''talk'' in a way of passing notes and she would always draw little piggy on the papers. I would sometimes make fun of her drawing and when i drew the pigs she would also make fun of mine.
Everytime after when teachers scold her in class, she would write on the foolscape paper and complain to me. Then of course me being me would always try to cheer her up with my drawings and make her laugh. Got one time i draw a fat teddy bear and she asked me why was it so fat. I said fat then nice to hug. So she replied me say Yingying also fat so ask me to go hug her since it was nice to hug. Haha. Michelle would also draw 2 pigs then label one is cute cute de innocent her and another one is pai kia (bad boy) de me. Lol. She everytime also say me pai kia. I still remember last time whenever i made her angry, i would pass her a note and say sorry. Then we would be ok le. We would also every night msg each other send those lame lame de goodnight msg. Sometimes she even send me good morning msg. Lol. I still keep those msg though. But they are all in my old phone.
Last time we can be so close.. Happily hanging out together, playing around in class and draw all those cute cute de piggys.. U all might be thinking if i liked her last time. But nope. She was just my best best friend. Yes its was. Like everything else when time passes, things will distanced itself. Even those things u hold so dear will
always always slip away.. Haiz. Why people cant go back to the past. Why cant they live in the past forever. The past is great ma. Why must we always move on. I hate moving on. Fuck. Haiz..
Thats bout it. And yes if u find me emotional and whatever shit like a girl. I got nothing to say. Thats me. Bleah* :p
Sunday, February 25, 2007 11:35 PM;
I'll update since i have nothing to do.
Ok. These past few days i have been gambling. Quite big i guess. But dont worry i dont gamble always, its just because its chinese new year. Anyways lucky thing is that i have been winning. It started last monday when my uncle suggested playing mahjong. Won bout 10 bucks that day.
Then on friday Sam said his hands were itchy and wanted to play mahjong. Planned to go to G.Zicheng's house to play but in the end played blackjack and dai dee instead. Since it was already 11 plus when we were going to start and we did not want to disturb the neighbours. I was the biggest winner or should i say i'm the only winner. Won 16 bucks from blackjack and dai dee and plus 4 dollars of ang bao money so in the end got 20 bucks. Can only say Zicheng was unlucky. He was the dealer when we're playing blackjack and when i decided to bet 1 dollar instead of the usual 10 cents bet, i got a ban ban. Which also means 2 A. And so he have to pay me 3 dollars. Haha. Then there's one round in dai dee i managed to clear my hand while the rest still have 10 cards each. They had to pay 2 times the amount. Ouch. Anyways i only collected less then 16 bucks that day cause Bernard needed some money for his breakfast the next day.
Then on saturday. Went to aunt house. Played dai dee again and won 5 bucks plus. Which is pretty much considering the bet was 10 cents a card. So ya. Total winnings out of gambling estimated is around 30 bucks ba. Was it pure luck? Or was it just skills? That i dont know, but the only way to find out is to...
GAMBLE MORE. Haha. Just kidding. I shouldnt be greedy. Must be contented with what i have. Lol. But it woundnt be alot of harm if i just try a few more games huh. Haha. So if u all are short of players for blackjack, dai dee or mahjong u know who to call ba. Hees.
Thursday, February 22, 2007 11:59 PM;
Just came back. Very very du lan. Ok i'll talk bout that part later. Now i just update quickly on the past few days.
Sat- Went for reunion dinner at uncle house. Nothing much to do. Being the eldest there, as my other cousins went back malaysia, i have to take care all my smaller cousins when they wanted to go to the playground and play. Imagine me with a group of around 6 to 8 kids. I had to hold everyone's hand while crossing the road. And when they reached the playground i can say that hell broke loose. They ran everywhere and i have to catch them. Then one of cousin hit his head on the pillar or something and cried. When i brought them back he was still crying. I was partly blamed. zZz.
Sun- Went to ah ma house. Also nothing to do. Only gambled abit and lost a few bucks. Quite little relatives came cause most of them went for tours. This is getting bad. I have lesser and lesser ang baos every year. This year i estimate the most i will only have a hundred and a little more dollars without counting my parents' ang bao.
Mon- Went to another uncle house. This day was the best. Coached my cousin maths for awhile and played mahjong for the whole day. I can only say that pri5 maths are getting tougher and tougher. They have already started learning algebra. Anyways we played 2 sessions of mahjong which lasted 6 hours. First session i won bout 10 bucks cause i limit once. Second session i could have won around 30 bucks more but my cousin during the last few rounds limit 3 times. What the. Lucky i won some rounds at first so i was able to break even.
Tue- Went aunt house. Something was wrong that day. On the way to my aunt house i suddenly felt nothing. Yes nothing. Suddenly felt like a retard or something. Ok fine. I also dont know how to explain anyways. Went home that way too.
Wed- One of my uncle treated all of us to a restaurant. After that went for movie with Sam. Watched Just follow law. It was ok i guess. Some parts i laughed le then i think to myself why did i laughed. Lol.
Thur- Cousin and i treated my uncle and my another cousin at Cafa chatel. Hmm not sure how to spell. The one at bishan de. They taught us Amaths ma. Last time they said if we pass our amaths we have to treat them. In the end both of us pass. Still cant believe it. I was F9ing all the way till prelims and in the O level i scored a B4. Haha. Ok enough bout that. After that went to find Dicky in David's house. Went to catch Epic movie with the S1 people. And then met Junmei to pass her present. The present was erm.. a last minute thing. Hope Junmei doesnt mind. Haha.
Ok here comes the du lan part. My friend called and ask me to play basketball near Chung cheng sec. As i never took a bus there i asked Zicheng. He told me to take 812. Ok so i went to the bus stop and took 812. The bus went one BIG round and returned to the bus interchange. Then i asked the uncle why this bus never stop at Chung cheng sec. He said i took the wrong 812. There are two 812s. What the. And some more i took 812E. zZz. I spent half an hour touring round yishun. Went i finally took the right bus and reached the basketball court. My friends werent playing. Because of a stupid bunch of people kicking soccer there. Can u tell me what kind of shit rule is this. Kicking
soccer in a
basketball court. Fuck them. In the end we never played and wasted time under void deck talking crap.
K. I think i'll end here. I'm too du lan to continue. Its been a very long post anyways.
Friday, February 16, 2007 11:15 PM;
ARGH.As much i want to say everything out.
I
WILL NOT. Yes its
N, O. NO. I'm not going to tell anymore things to anyone already. Maybe i shared too much in the past so i have learnt my lesson. I'm not going to tell anyone le. So please dont ask me. Yes that includes u Sam.
I can only say ARGH. All those things i took alot of time and put alot of heart and effort into it. But just one word from u, its all gone. Aya i better stop talking already. If not wait some people start making wild guesses. U know how much i want to tell u the effort i put in de ma? But i guess that would be an unwise decision. Its my last wish, i really want it to come out perfectly de. Haiz. Forget it. Who ask me be so..
Went back to school today. Spent most of the time in the basketball court with the sec4s. Been quite close to them lately. Everytime go back school will hang out with them. Even that time after taking my results. I celebrated with them instead of my other friends. And i really hate myself. Didnt help them much in today's match. zZz. I can only say i suck, my skills deproved. And i still can ownself an wei myself say maybe because i'm wearing jeans so thats why it was so bad. Haiz.
Saw yesterday de stupid 9pm show. The stupid guy got together with the stupid girl. He just paste back her drawings then can together le. What the fuck. If love is so simple, everyone will be in love le. Stupid show. I can say people do more things then him for their loved ones lor. And still cant be together. Stupid just paste back the drawings can le. Fuck the stupid show.
I think that tomorrow morning i have to go basketball court and train alone le. Its not like my teammates are free anyways. And besides i have to think through something in a quiet place.
Haiz
Haiz Haiz.
Wednesday, February 14, 2007 11:10 AM;
OK.
I'm finally done with the JAE thing. Just submitted my 12 choices. It's been a hard time choosing and deciding which to put as my first choice. Anyways these are my choices.
1- S71 Business Administration (SP)
2- C94 Business Management (NYP)
3- N45 Business Studies (NP)
4- S76 Banking and Financial Services (SP)
5- C96 Banking and Financial Services (NYP)
6- N53 Banking and Financial Services (NP)
I only put 6 here. Too lazy to type out the rests. And ya all my choices are business related de. If u are wondering. Finally convinced myself to choose SP instead of Nyp. Hard time. Haiz. Now can just only wait for the results of the posting some time around march. I'm so relieved after doing this. I have been stress out like hell these few days just by choosing the courses and the schools.
Ok now that i'm done. I'm left with 2 things to do. First, think of what we can do for Mr naufaul. He say he isn't disappointed, but i doubt that. He sure will be disappointed de, at least a little. Next i have to help my dad think of a slogan for his company. Actually not help, he already thought of one already but he asked me to help anyways. If the slogan got chosen, the winner will receive $1000. OMG. If i won that, i dont have to find work already. Haha. Its very attractive hor. $1000. Lets say if i take 2 hours to think of the slogan, i'll earn $500 an hour. LOL. Thats definitely more than any work that can be earn within an hour. Imagine u have the money now, u can do alot alot alot things with it. Yea for girls u can go shopping till u siao. Haha. For guys, hmm.. i not sure. Maybe just that u can buy almost whatever u want. Maybe a PS3. Haha. Ok that's being said and done, I'm gonna work hard and think of the slogan and win the $1000! Hees.
O ya anyways Happy Valentine's day. Those who do not have anyone to spend their day with, dont worry. There's alot other people out there who is also the same. Some might be worst, never having anyone during Valentine's day all all during their whole life.. Erm. Ya. Ok i'll stop here.
Monday, February 12, 2007 11:40 PM;
Haiz...Went to Tp, Nyp and SP today with Cheng fa, Xiao wei and Fook yu. Ok maybe not all went together. All 4 of us were at Tp, then 3 at Nyp, and finally left Cheng fa and me at SP. Wanted to go take a look at Np but its was already quite late when we decided to and also we cant find the shuttle bus. Lol. Seems like going to the polys either kinda dont help much or at all. Ayo i dont know la.
OK THIS IS VERY IMPORTANT FOR ME.Can u guys give me ideas bout choosing either SP's business administration or Nyp's business management. Its both the same despite the different names. I want Nyp because its near and convenient while SP, (according to my cousin who has graduated there) has a little reputation. I'm really stuck between these 2 schools. Somewhere near or somewhere which has a little bit of reputation. Haiz. Maybe its because i'm used to going to schools which are nearby since i was young so thats why i'm attached to Nyp. But i also want a good poly to go to. Its time i start thinking bout my career anyways. AYO so fan ar! Its it me being lazy or its it that SP is really that far? Haiz. Please do let me know what u think and if can, tell me the reasons i should choose which school. I know its my future and i should think bout it myself but trust me, i'm really that damm stuck in between.Ok this is bout another thing. Its bout Mr naufaul. I dont know what to say.. Maybe only a thousand sorrys to him. I guess everyone would have know what happened and would have read a thousand people blogging bout it. But i still want write down what i feel. I've kinda been a bad student in the past. Always going against teachers in sec3. I didnt know anything that time. Was also kinda upset for being separated from my best friends. Dicky was in S1, Sam in A1, Jing in A2 and me in S2. All 4 of us were separated. I know it might not been a big deal but the prob is that i have been through it before. So i didnt want to go through it again. Anyways Mr naufaul was one of the teachers who believe in me then. Even thought i failed bio constantly, he always tried to encourage me to work harder. Sometimes he draw a sad face on my test papers when i fail my bio tests by 1 or 2 marks. And when i pass by 1 or 2 marks he would draw a big smile on my paper. It was such a big encouragement for me. Haiz. And when i reached sec4 i did try to pay attention in class and ask him questions after lessons. He would always try his best to help me. And whenever i say i sure fail bio one, he will say " Dont think like this benjamin. I believe in u and i believe u will try your best.
But do u believe in yourself ?'' Other then the ones in bold, he did say something close like that. Lol.
I read Shirley's blog and what she had written bout Mr naufaul. I nearly cried, especially when listening to her blogsong and reading that post. I can tell u, there's very little things that can almost make me cry.. Other than something, this is the only thing i nearly cried about. Haiz. I'm not just blogging bout this just for the sake of blogging it since its like the ''in'' thing now. But this is what i really feel. I feel like doing something for Mr naufaul but currently still thinking of what to do. I have to settle the JAE thing first before i can do this. So if u guys have any ideas, can tell me.
I'll end here by saying this. I will never forget Mr nafual and when i grow up and have a chance to talk to other students like giving them talks, i will tell them bout a story. A story of a dedicated teacher who left his mark in my heart.
Sunday, February 11, 2007 1:42 PM;
The AftermathHaiz. Feeling kinda scared right now. I still cant believe i got this kind of results. Its not bad or what but i this kind of standard still can get this kind or results. Dont know if i should be happy or afraid. I fear that many other O level students will score much better then me. Some of my subjects i thought i would just barely pass but ended up getting B3 so that means those who did better then me might end up getting like a A1 or an A2. And even if the situation is like that, if i had managed to study more i might get an A too. zZz. I dont know.. Must depend on the whole singapore students standard. Well but there's also some friends of mine who didnt do as well as they wanted so maybe it's not as bad as i thought.
Another problem is bout choosing the courses. For me i have no interests or anything so thats kinda of a big problem. So i thought to myself since its like that, why dont i just take up a business course and when i graduate i just find a job and work for people. Kinda easy it seems but nope its not. There's still so many kind of business courses to choose from. zZz. Talked to my cousins yesterday so roughly have an idea of what to choose le. Both different side de cousins, both studied different things. One just came out from SP Accountancy and Finance course, the other one is already in the working force with a Mechatronics engineering diploma. Haiz. Both tell me different things, also dont know what to choose. Then my dad is in Financial Services de, ask me go engineering. Lol.
Anyways i'm still deciding. Whether to choose a Business Management course or to specialise Banking and Financial services straight away. Which school is also another problem. zZz. Aya why so fan one. Haven get results fan, get already also fan. Probably going to Nyp and SP tomorrow to check out the courses and get advise from the teachers there.
Friday, February 9, 2007 11:50 PM;
Ok just came back. Think its kinda early compared to those who went to celebrate after getting their results. Me? Yea i'm happy with my results. It was better then i expected. Haha.
I'll update starting from the beginning of today. Woke up at 8 something and went to watch tv. I was watching halfway when i suddenly remembered i need to get black hair spray. So went down and buy one from CK. After that had nothing to do so went to clear up my study table. The last time i was there it was still O levels and i never touch that table since then. Time pass so fast that the next time i touch the table again its getting results already. Lol. It was nearly 1 plus when i finished so i changed and went to school. Didnt meet up with anyone cause i wanted to go to schood alone. Dont ask me why, i just feel that i have to do this alone. Haha.
Reached school and saw many groups of people. Didnt know who to follow. Lol. Mummy waved to me once i just stepped inside the parade square, Manda came and talked to me too at the same time, then many juniors in the canteen. Went up the hall at 2 then Mr Low started talking to us. Bla bla bla, announced the top students, bla bla bla, showed us how many passes for each subject. Ok then the moment came. Getting our results. Lined up and took one by one. Then when i took mine i only managed to scan through. I was frightened at first cause many of the sec4 basketball guys were around in a circle beside me. I haven see finish they already take my result slip and pass it around. Lol. Haha. But nevermind la, i guess they were just concern bout my results. (:
Then after that some choir girls also asked bout my results. Then it was like my result slip being pass everywhere. Haha. U can imagine the scene i was surrounded by everyone and being bombarded with questions like "Hey how have u done?" and i have to shake hands which suddenly came out of everywhere. Lol. Funny that it was the sec4s that were more concern bout me then my other friends. Haha. Anyways after that stayed at the hall for some time and went back to choir. Wanted to go play basketball with the guys but by the time choir end school was going to close. So we went to block 851 and played. Of course everyone went home to changed first. Haha. Played till 10 plus then came home bath and start blogging le.
Yup so that's it. O still haven talked bout my results. For L1R4 i got 14 and L1R5 i got 18. I was very shocked to see that for my combined humanities i got A2. And that was the only A i got. I still thought it was my Emaths that i scored an A till my friend told me. Lol. Mostly i score B3s which included english, chinese, emaths and combined science. I thought that i would barely pass my science cause the paper was kinda hard. O ya and the thing i'm most happy was my amaths. I got a B4! From f9 till a B4. OMG. Haha. I've been scoring f9 all the time i never would expect i will do so well for my amaths. The only subject i fail was biology. Haiz. Half of our class flunked it. Wonder hows Mr naufaul doing now. I think he's utterly disappointed by our class. He wanted the whole class to pass but now.. Haiz. We didnt get to see him today. I think he dont want to see us too.
Anyways here's the part i hate the most. Choosing courses. I really dont know what to choose cause i dont have anything i want to learn. Haiz. Hope i'm able to get a course which suits me and i will be able to cope with good career prospects.
Thursday, February 8, 2007 11:40 PM;
Well.. Tomorrow's the day i guess.
Yep finally that day is coming. The day every graduated sec4 students have been waiting for. Results day! Haha. Everyone will be very nervous or afraid that they will not do well. Its normal for them to feel like that i guess. What bout me? Yea i'm pretty nervous. But i try not to think of it. Then i will be ok le lor. Haha. But have to admit when its getting closer to knowing the results, i'll be damm nervous.
Anyways i wanted to find a song which will fit what everyone's feeling but it was kinda hard. Only parts of some songs fit but the other parts doesnt make sense at all. Lol. The only closest song is It ends tonight by The All-American Rejects. Know why? Cause everyone's worries will end tonight. Tomorrow will get results le. Haha. Ok kinda lame. Lol.
K i'll stop here. Hope tomorrow everyone will get the results they want. Good luck!
Tuesday, February 6, 2007 10:15 PM;
Ok.
I'll update today. If not god knows when i'm going to update again. Haha.
Right. Today morning was supposed to go swimming with Sam at 9. He was afraid that he could not wake up in time so he asked me to give him a wake up call when i wake up. And thats what i did when i woke up but was surprised to hear that he was already awake and was in school. Actually he was not awake, because he never did sleep for the whole night. Lol. So we changed the meeting time to 9.30 but still Sam was late. He's never earlier than me at all.. ok well maybe once. But all this time whenever i'm meeting him, he will be late. So i'll warn u all next time when u all going out with him, change the time to 1/2 an hour earlier.. no make it 1 hour.
When we reach there we talked in the pool for awhile, after that went to lie on the benches and start to sun tan. Sam slept there while i was thinking bout things all the while. Sun tan till 11 plus and i couldn't take it already cause its too hot so i went to swim. Swam for some time till Sam woke up and we left. Went to eat our lunch and headed home. Been going swimming cum sun tanning with Sam for few days and i kinda grew darker. Hope it'll stay that way.
When i was back home i was kinda tired and decided to go sleep. Since i only slept at 2 plus last night. However i received a sms the same time i just lied down. zZz. Was Junmei, she ask me if i was free to accompany her for dinner. Since i'm really have nothing to do i agreed. Took a bath and went straight to Vivo. Found Junmei at her lucky dip counter. Haha. But she had a customer at that time. Waited for awhile for her and went to Yoshinoya to have our dinner since both of us dont have an idea what to eat. After that we went round looking for new clothes. Junmei suggested some shirts but i was kinda fussy. Haha. Aya i'm a bad shopper de. I guess Junmei will agree with me. Hor Junmei? Haha. Bought starbucks coffee back for Priscilla and i pass it to her in Tangs since Junmei had to walk
one big round from the other entrance which was kinda
long back into Tangs. Lol. After that Junmei went back to work while i walk around some more. She told me when i going off le drop by to tell her. So thats what i did but guess what. Something funny happened, and its kinda long so i will not say here. Junmei knows. Haha.
Overall thats what happened today. Going running with Sam tomorrow. Have to train stamina. zZz. Haiz bo bian everytime basketball matches just have to run up and down few times. Cant really run much. Feeling kinda happy today. Anyways Junmei told me something just now. Dont know can say ma. Haha. When she told me she said she feels like it. I was laughing because this type of thing is either yes or not. U cant feel like yes or no. Haha. Ok i better stop here if not i'm gonna be dead. (:
Sunday, February 4, 2007 12:05 AM;
Wow.
Seems like i not been updating much these few days. Despite the fact that i have taken a long leave from work and been very free with nothing to do. Lol. I guess that there hasn't been anything interesting things for me to blog bout these few days. I also dont want to blog like almost everyday even if i do not have anything in mind to say, just to keep readers from reading my blog. Well some bloggers do that but it doesnt work for me. I dont think i have alot of readers anyways. Haha. I just hope those who come to my blog can just tag so that i know u've been here. Dont have to say anything much, just a simple hi will do. But i do REALLY appreciate if u can comment on my posts. Haha.
Anyways i'm happy that lately more and more people are starting to like Take That songs. Especially Patience. Haha. Its a good sign i guess. Appreciating good music. They're not like some stupid boybands who come out of a sudden and then disappear nowhere. Take That have been around for quite some time already. At least a decade. And u got to admit, the more u listen to their songs the more u will like it. I listened to Patience for at least a hundred times and i have never been bored listening it. Maybe the lyrics really fit what i have been feeling..
K enough of that. Now i shall introduce another Take That song which is kinda inspiring. The song kinda motivates people, i guess. Its got a catchy tune. And its kinda like a reminder to me, the lyrics. But i won make it my blogsong. I still like Patience more. So again if u want the song u can ask from me. I will gladly send it to u. (:
The song title is Shine.
You,you're such a big star to me
You're everything I wanna be
But you're stuck in a hole and I want you to get out
I don't know what there is to see
But I know it's time for you to leave
We're all just pushing along
Trying to figure it out, out, out
All your anticipation pulls you down
When you can have it all, you can have it allSo come on, so come on, get it on
Don't know what you're waiting for
Your time is coming don't be late, hey hey
So come on
See the light on your faceLet it shineJust let it shine
let it shine
Stop being so hard on yourselfIt's not good for your health
I know that you can changeSo clear your head and come aroundYou only have to open your eyesYou might just get a big surpriseAnd it may feel good and you might want to
smile, smile, smileDon't you let your demons pull you down
Cause you can have it all, you can have it allSo come on, so come on, get it on
Don't know what you're waiting for
Your time is coming don't be late, hey hey
So come on
See the light on your face
Let it shine
Just let it shine
Let it shine
Hey let me know you
You're all that matters to me
Hey let me show you
You're all that matters to meHey let me love you
You're all that matters to me
Hey so come on yeah
Shine all your light over me...