Sunday, April 29, 2007 12:40 AM;
AyoNeed to retype everything that i typed the other night when i wanted to blog. zZz. Okok lets see if i can remember what i wrote, hmm..
Poly life has too much freedom. So much freedom that when u dont do your tutorial, the teachers won care much. Hell, they dont even tell u to do it when u have to. No more reminders anymore like secondary school, which is bad for people like me who needs constant remindings. Lol. New friends in poly are ok. They are a fun bunch to hang with. Real cool. Except sometimes, some guy dont like some guy and some guys dont like some girl. Other then that, everyone's ok. Lol
School sucks cause we need to do so many things that is IT and me being an IT idiot cant do anything much. What's worst is that we still have to design a creative and innovative product for the future using a stupid programme. Can u tell me how the hell would i know what the future looks like?!? And what the hell man. I dont come to a
BUSINESS course to learn bout IT and DESIGN. Stupid.
Then come to cca. Really wanted to join basketball but then backed down cause i know that i would make a fool out of myself during auditions. There will be many people auditioning and most likely they would be much better then me. Lol. But i really REALLY want to know the standard of SP's basketball. Ayo stupid OP la, dont even have basketball cca just because the principal thought it was a bad thing. If there was a basketball cca then, i would surely join and maybe i can get into SP de basketball team or something. SIAN LA. Thinking of joining the gym club. Yes GYM club, dont laugh. For healthy reasons of course.
Ok time for pics from last friday's speech day.
Performing
The guys section+Mr chan
Snapshot
Okok serious now. Lol
Look away
Look around
Family photo(serious look)
With 2 isabelles
Angle
From another angle
Yet another angle (PS: Notice there is some gay activities going on in all 3 pics. LOL)
I know its disgusting but please dont puke
Niang niang qiang
Committee'07 with Mr chan and Mr goh
Xiaoling and me. By the way she is JUST my senior, nothing else. REALLY
Whole choir with us seniors (:
Whew* Finally done uploading the pics. I think this post has the most pics i ever uploaded till now. I know that my image is spoilt already cause some or most pics are disgusting. But please try to remember that i was trying to cheer them up, so have to act cute and all those. Trust me i'm not going to do all these again. Seriously.
Ok now this part is something totally unrelated, i just need to type it out to get it out my chest.
O man o man o man.. Did I screwed myself up? I wasn’t prepared for your question. And stupid me have to answer without thinking. Now i kinda regretted what i said. Was that what u wanted to hear? Was that the right answer? Or there wasn’t any correct answer in the first place? Ayo.. What i hear from other people is one thing but what i feel is another thing. Wonder which one is right. But then again i dont want to repeat the same mistake i made in the past. So i think i'll take it slowly this time.
O well. Lets not think too much..
Sunday, April 22, 2007 12:01 AM;
'The Someone Poem'
*someone loves this someone alot.
but someone doesnt feel the same way towards someone.
someone only treats someone as a brother.
someone can accept that but sometimes someone really hope he can get more then that.
someone does alot of things for someone.
someone doesnt need to know that but someone just hopes someone will be happy.
someone is trying HARD to forget someone.
someone hopes he can maintain to be a brother to someone.
but someone heart dont let him.
everytime someone see someone he will get back that feeling.
someone always haiz.
when someone ask someone why he always haiz he really wants to tell her the real reason.
someone haiz because he feels really helpless at times.
someone hopes he can go back to the past and start things a different way.
someone wishes someone will care about his feelings and hopefully accept him one day..
I promised myself not to be sad this year. Since it has already be a thing in the past and i dont think anyone care about it anymore.
Time passes so fast. Its been 2 years already. A blink of an eye and i'm already here. Maybe with another blink of an eye, there will be someone else new? I dont know..
Hopefully i will be able to get over it. I never felt anything like this before. Its somehow a very strong feeling. But i really do hope i get over it. Who knows maybe a few years down the road i'll look back and laugh at myself?
Do u know that i saved some of those chats we had in msn? Yea, sometimes i read through all of them again. To read over and over again what we chatted and somehow try to get back that same feeling in the past. Mostly the feelings are not so good, but i dont mind. I rather feel all the pain again so that i can feel.
Ice skating. That was what we did last year. I still kinda dont quite like that place cause i went there a year ago. But still i have to admit, there were some good moments too.
If u happen to read this, i know that u sure will have alot of what-the-hells bout the above things. I know that u dont like all these. But.. i really have to say them out. But trust me. It won happen again anymore. I'm not going to mention any of these anymore. I'm not going to bother u anymore too. All the best to u too.
There's a continuous part to the poem. But i think i'm not going to put it up.
Friday, April 20, 2007 11:59 PM;
Yet another quick update.
Started the day a little moody. Went for some tutorials. Then started to become very sleppy after sleeping for a little while in the food court during the 3 hours break. Finished school then went home straight. Put down my bag, changed and went to OP. Called Xiaoling to get me in again then was just in time to hear the choir sing. (: Followed them back to ava room after they sang and talked to all of them for awhile. After that it was time for
mass photo taking.
O MY GOD la can. I took so many photos with them and i smiled so widely. Some more i smiled showing my teeth and of course, my braces. Which does
NOT happen often. Trust me. Lol. I always dont like smiling showing my braces de, furthermore smiling so widely. I also always never checked the photos after taking them cause i know that i will look like shit. I cant take good photos de. And also i think my image is spoilt already. All the pose i did today was like so damm stupid. From acting cute to being lame. Lol. Haiz, aya nevermind la. As long as they are happy, i dont mind taking ugly photos with them. Haha. And i realised after taking all the weirds photos, my mood kinda got better. Compared to this morning la. And also i think i'm really getting old, cause i felt tired after taking the photos with them. But its not only me, Xiaoling and Hui ping felt tired too. Haha.
Then came back home and some shit happened. Guess everyone's busy with their new life and kinda forgot bout the past. All those fun times.. Even when i wanted to start afresh, some shit just happened too, in poly. Haiz o well..
Will upload some of the photos another day. (:
Thursday, April 19, 2007 10:55 PM;
Ok another quick update.
Straight after tutorial, took a cab down to VCH. Lucky i managed to reach there before the syf competition started. Must thank the taxi driver. Think he can sense i was in a rush when i was in the cab. And he's kinda funny. Keep talking to me bout how i should go jc instead of poly. And how he's daughter said to him that jc is much easier then secondary 4. Lol. But he was right bout some points though. Reached and called Xiaoling to get me in. Got in and waited for quite awhile before it started.
Ok so our choir was the first one. Can feel that they were nervous. I was pretty nervous myself too. Haha. Then they started singing. Not bad.. or should i say i find it very nice. Then the rest of the other schools sang and soon it was time for the results... And our choir got bronze. zZz. We were totally shocked cause we thought we could at least retain a silver. Haiz.
Wasnt really THAT sad at first but when i got near them, i was
badly affected. Almost all of them were crying, and even those who werent had those very very sad de face. Worst part was that we seniors still had to act as thought nothing happen, smile cheerfully in front of them and cheer them up. Was VERY hard u know.. O well. That was the least we could do for them. Could see that all of them were utterly disappointed as they had put it months of effort. Its alright guys, as long as u all did your best its good enough le. Dont worry, u all didn let any of us seniors down. So cheer up yea. (:
On the bus back tried very hard to cheer them up. But like to little avail. zZz. Then after that went to ate my lunch+dinner with Xiaoling, Hui ping, Royston and Jing hang. Ok i better go le. Still have to clear my stack of notes in my bag. O ya by the way have to say something totally unrelated here. Well..
Pearl rocks. (:
Lol.
Wednesday, April 18, 2007 8:43 PM;
O man..
As much as i want to update bout these few days, i cant. I have so much things to do now. And nope they're not homework. zZz. I just need to come and here and type some stuffs. I really need to say out what i feel right now. O ya u all can dont bother reading it. Its practially rubbish. Ok here goes nothing..
O MAN O MAN. zZz.. Why does it has to happen like these? Its just only the first few days of school leh. Wa lou so fast like that le. zZz.. Is it so obvious? Siao liao la. Why always like that de. ARGH!!! Die le lor. Sure die de. zZz.. I try not to let it happen la k? Must control.. must control.. AYO.. ARGH!!! Haiz. I'm supposed to.. Why now become like that de? Whatever it is.. O PLEASE O PLEASE dont let it happen.. Even if it really happens and turns out the way i want.. then.. Aya
O FOR GOD'S SAKE FUCKING PLEASEErm. Sorry bout that.. Yea but anyways told u its rubbish. Lol. And my laptop finally got delivered here today. And u know what was the first thing i did after charging it for 4 hours? I on it. Restart it. Then off it. LOL. I suck at computers man. Dont even know what to do la. Okok i guess i better go now. Tomorrow still have to go down to VCH straight after school. Remember guys.. Jia you jia you jia you! (:
O ya i want to post this pharse i saw at Kok meng's blog. Its quite meaningful and it really applies to me alot. Going to put this under my sayings section some day. "Life goes on no matter what happen, one can't remain in the past where it's no more." Haiz..
O man..
Saturday, April 14, 2007 8:23 PM;
Ok.
Got more pics taken from the last day of orientation. Special thanks to Bryan and Pearl who send me the pics. Well.. maybe just Pearl ba. Since Bryan got the pics from her too. Haha
This pic is the pic that Kok meng accidentally closed his eyes when its being taken. Thus a need to take another pic. And he was suaned by many of the girls becuase of this too. Haha.
Something for u GUYS out there. XD
O ya. I didn managed to name all of the girls in my class the other time. Felt so bad when i saw my other fellow classmates cum bloggers managed to. They named everyone in the picture, including the guys. So.. i think i better do the same ba. If not i like no sincerity like that. Lol.
Top row (from left to right): Shayenne, Clariss, Debbie, Yoke kuan, Jiamin, Yuan ming, Huai qiong.
Bottom row: Chui mei, Pearl, Melissa(not our class de), Vivian, Zhou er.
And i want to emphasise again that i DID smile for all the pics. Just that.. aya u know why la. Lol. And if u can see in the pic, my hair is pretty short. Think this is the shortest ever since i graduated from OP. Maybe even shorter when i was in sch.. XP
New look for a new begining.. Haiz..
Thursday, April 12, 2007 11:58 PM;
Back!
From orientation. Haha. Hmm, what should i say bout it.. Well, its pretty fun. Nope. I dont mean the orientation itself. I meant during the orientation. Er.. U dont get me right? Lol. K, let me tell u guys the whole details.
Day 1Arranged to meet up with Samuel, Kenny, Cheng fa, Wenning and Wen xu at yishun mrt. All of us reached except for Kenny. So end up he made us skip quite a few trains just to wait for him. zZz. Nevermind la Kenny, dont have to say sorry le. Lol. Then took the train to SP. Parted ways with Cheng fa, Wenning and Wen xu. So the rest of us walked to the school of business block. Parted ways with the rest too, then had to find where my course and group is, which is so damm bloody hard. Everyone's everywhere, damm messy. Lol. I was looking for my class which is DBA 1A10, but all i see is 1A9, 1A11 and 1A12 all these. No 1A10 at all! And u can imagine how damm du lan i was. Lol. In the end found my class then went in the auditorium and listen some things. Went up to our classroom and played icebreaking games. Got one game i kena forfeit with another girl and one of the facilitators. And what we have to do for this forfeit is play a game of what glue together thing. Everyone will say one thing and we have to do it together. For eg someone say put out ur left hand, all 3 of us need to stack our left hands together. So there were people who were like saying put ur butts together and we really had to put our butts together. Lol. Got one person say put our hands on each other head and the girl really just put her hand on my head. She wasnt afraid that her hand might be dirty cause i have wax on my hair. Then i was like slowly moving my head away but she caught me. She turn around and tell me not to move away from her. Haha. After that whole class went to eat together, then came back and was supposed to play more games but the stupid weather was raining. So end up not playing anything and was released quite early. Then went out with Samuel and Kenny to plaza sing. Was supposed to go play pool de but end up both of them shopped the whole day. Lol. Anyways what i like was, on the first day of orientation all the guys in my class bonded together. All 7 of us. So fast hor. Haha.
Day 2I'll try cut it short. Sat in the convention hall for the whole day. Listened to many talks. Then at the end there's this pageant thing. Samuel got chosen. Then he was VERY funny up on stage. Haha. Too lazy to type out why. If u want know go his blog. (: Those who were there can really agree with me. So funny la. Haha. After the
long pageant thing we were released to go home. K then i asked Shayenne if she wants to go home together. By the way Shayenne is the girl that i did the forfeit together. Haha. I ask her because the day before i saw her waiting for the train to jurong east alone. She saw me too, looking at her. :P Most of my classmates take the other mrt line back so its kinda hard to find someone who is going the same way as me. Haha. She said ok so we went back together. But end up we went back with 2 other guys as one of them needs to travel to jurong east to find his cousin and the other stays at yio chu kang.
Day 3Stupid SPICE training day. Basically its just learning how to use the laptop thing. Didn do anything much cause i didn have a laptop. My cousin told me its not necessary to get, but end up this is a new rule that all year1 students need to get a laptop. zZz. Anyways another friend of mine didn have laptop too. So i'm not alone. Lol. SPICE training ended early, then went to have lunch with some of my friends and accompanied them to solve their laptop problems, which many people have. Lol. Waited till 3 then went home alone cause Shayenne was going out with her friend.
Day 4Last day of orientation. Was flag day today. Our class and some other classes were given the area of eunos. zZz. We were all suppose to start at 730 but our great facilitators decided to start at 830 instead. (: Haha. But i was late, cause i kinda took the wrong bus. zZz. When i reached, some of the guys decided to go to parkway parade cause they wanted to slack. XD So we took the bus there and did the charity thing for awhile then went to go play arcade. Haha. After that, ate at the shopping centre and took bus back to eunos. Waited for the whole class to be back and then went back to SP. On the way back, all of the guys crapped alot. We joke like siao and talk and laugh so loud in the train. Haha. I love them man. They are such great people to be with. (: Then went back to class to count the donations. I had the least amount, other then the facilitator la. Lol. But i'm not ashamed at all. Cause all i did was just stand there and waited for people to come and donate. I didn went around pestering people like everyone else cause i myself dont like people to come and pester me for donation. If they want to donate, they'll donate. Why keep pestering them if they dont want to. Right? K, then we were released. The class decided to take class pic. But when taking, it was damm funny. The girls made fun of Kok meng (our facilitator) because he have small eyes and he closed his eyes when we took the picture. Then they also keep saying his name in a funny way, making him so irritated. Haha. Then went to eat at holland village with Bryan, Kok meng, Luke, Luke's friend, Pearl, Shayenne and Shayenne's friend. Then went home with Kok meng and Pearl.
Whew. That was a damm long one. Anyways overall i'm very happy that fate brought all of us together. Didn regret getting into this class as this is a very fun class. Especially the guys, even thought we are only 7 people strong, we are quite united already. And the guys are also a damm fun group to be with. Always crapping along, everywhere we go. Haha. Especially Syakir, great joker man. Haha. The girls also say we guys are like girls, cause we get together so easily and can really chat alot. They were even shocked that we can bond so fast. Lol. Whereas the girls are still in small groups here and there. But i think its because there are just the 7 of us so its quite easy. Haha.
Syakir, the joker. And also the vice chairman of our class. Haha
DBA class 1A10. Reminds me of 1A4. Lol
Bottom (from left to right): Our 2 facilitators, Kok meng and Justin.
2nd bottom row: Kayhwa, Luke, Xing zong, Syakir, Bryan, Yi long.
2nd top row: Pearl, Clariss, Dont know who, Dont know who, Dont know who, Me.
Top row: Dont know who, Shayenne, Dont know who(x5) U know what i mean.. Lol
K i just want to say that i DID smile. But just dont know why it ends up looking like that. zZz. If i smile wider then in the pic it will look so fake. Lol. Dont know why i just cant smile the proper smile. Haiz. Anyways to tell u the truth when i first heard that my 2 facilitators were both guys, i was very sian. Cause normally guys will be very lazy one then won do much, but girls will be quite active. Lol. But after these 4 days of orientation, i'm glad that my facilitators were Kok meng and Justin. They're very fun people to be with too. And u cant imagine that they just met when they took us on our first day of orientation. They made fun of each other like they were long time friends. We were damm shocked when they said they didn know know each other before our orientation. Haha. Anyways they are the best facilitators that there can be. And i'm quite happy with the orientation and how it went out, even thought we didn play much games. Lol.
Nah i think this post is enough to compensate of 3 days not blogging. Haha.
Sunday, April 8, 2007 5:11 PM;
Haiz.
O well. Tomorrow's the start of my poly orientation. Dont know if i'm looking forward to it or not. I think half half ba. At least i'm going to start a new life in poly, get to know new friends and stuff. Maybe will even forget some things.. But there's a huge part of me that does not want to move on. Move on with life. Move on after secondary school life. Haiz. I really enjoyed myself during this period of time. Made alot of new friends and some close close ones. Learned new things and get to know life better. And of course come to realise some stuffs that i didn know in the past. But now when i have to leave all these that i have gained behind, i cant bear too. Old friends will slowly drift apart, old knowledge will be replaced by new ones.. Bla bla bla. Aya i also dont know what i talking le. Anyways i just want thank these people i met during secondary school. They are the ones who made me who i am today.
Thanks..
Sam, Dicky, Jing, Dixon, Wen chuan, Wei zhong, Kian meng, Amanda, Fong mui, Shi ping, Wenning, Shui hui, Sitting, Jun yu, Josephine, Angela, Kenneth, Kelly, Shu zhen, Keng leong, Michelle, Natrisha, Xiao wei, Munirah, Ashyura, Hafizah, Joanne, Ying lin, Ying ying, Safarina, Cheryl Seow, Cheryl Tham, Madhiah, Yi wei, Yu ning, Fook yu, Cheng fa, Jin cheng, Jun mei, Shirley, Samuel, Siew shen, Kexin, Bosheng, Christoper, Kelvin, Denis, Han qiang, Douglas, Xiao long, Zhi ming, Anthony, Alex, Liu yong, Olivia, Feng ling, Sarah, Ophira, Wan qi, Jaslyn teo, Yan nee, Lin juan, Adeline, Corrine, Lilian, Bao yun, Shi yun, Shi yi, Jaslyn tan, Jasdeep, Bernard, Zicheng, Kenny, Ming hong, David, Edaline, Eugene, Ridhwan, Joo yong, Royston, Daryl, Thompson, Jasmine, Hui fang, Keyan, Dingli, Jacklyn, Xin yang, Yan fang, Eliza, Yan rui, Priscilla, Chee geok, Yee ching, Xiaoling, Hui ping, Xinyi, Zhaoyi, Cheepong, Issac, Shengyan, Azila, Cindy, Zhen hua, Faith, Shinkay, Ming gui, Jing hang, Jia min, Zhang shou, Cecilia, Charmine, Elysia, Sharon, Qiong hui, Manda, Anthea, Ai wei, Zona, Bing xue, Jia hao, Cheesheng, Gavin, Firdaus, Zalikha, Isabelle Ang, Isabelle Kang, Zhao min, Tarine, Kimberly, Jia qi, Jennifer, Vanessa, Alicia, Qi wei, Diyao, Wei shen, Adonis, Allen, Yi jie, Si yuan, Yong wei, Jerren, Darren, Jason, Shannon, Hui fong, Jasper, Hao jie, Cynthia, Melissa, Myra, Nadirah, Joyline.
Practically everyone i know in orchid park. More or less. Whee* Tiring sia. Lol. Try find your name in it. Hees. If i forgotten any one of your names, dont hesitate to tell me yea? Yup, each and everyone of them played a part of my life. I'm happy that i met and know them. Haha. Sounds abit cheesy huh.
Well.. To tell u the truth, i thought of dying before. Cause u know, i dont quite want to move on with life cause i love life the way it is now. So the only way to remember everything the way it is now, is to die and u wont have to go on with life! Haha. Okok dont worry. Its just a thought. I wont be stupid enough to do that. Lol. But still in these 4 years, there were some things that i regret. There are also some things that didnt really end.. Haiz. O well. I guess that's life ba. Always full of regrets and wont go according to the way u want it to be. Haha.
Haiz
Those were the days.. Haiz
I want to go back to the past la. Nono. I want to relive the past over and over again. Lol.
Just so you know - Jesse Mccartney
I shouldn't love you, but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you, but I can't move
I can't look away
And I dont know how to be fine when I'm not
Cause I don't know how to make the feelings stop
Just so you know
This feeling's takin' control
Of me and I can't help it
I won't sit around
I can't let 'em win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know
It's gettin' hard to
Be around you
Theres so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way
And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
Cause I don't know how to make the feelings stop
Just so you know
This feeling's takin' control
Of me and I can't help it
I wont sit around
I can't let 'em win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know
This emptiness is killin' me
And I'm wonderin' why I've waited so long
Lookin' back I realize it was always there, just never spoken
I'm waitin' here
Been waitin' here
Just so you know
This feeling's takin' control
Of me and I can't help it
I wont sit around
I can't let 'em win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know
Just so you know
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know
Just so you know
Wednesday, April 4, 2007 11:15 PM;
Wa its been a long time since i updated. Think i'll update bout today ba. (:
Woke up early in the morning for dentist appointment. Had to squeeze in the mrt train with alot of people. zZz. Haiz. Who ask my dad to refuse to drive me there everytime i go. Dental was ok i guess. After that went back home and rest for awhile. Then went out to meet Keyan mummy.
Saw Samuel and people on the mrt platform and took the train to somerset alone. Waited for mummy at the bus stop near heeren. Wa didn know there's bus to town from MI. Haha. When she reached, we walked to cineleisure to have our lunch. Ate at chicago's steakhouse. She ordered chicken burger set lunch while i ordered sirloin steak. After that went to the ipod shop and Nike shop. Mummy picked a nice
red shirt for me but damm it only have small sizes left. And it only costed $29.90! Plus a 40% discount! Wasted la. Haha. Then walked back to heeren and shopped. I bought 2 tshirts, one from Flesh imp one from 77th street. She bought a tube from Forever 21. Went to ck tang to get free perfume but we could only exchange 1 postcard for a perfume per person. We had 3 postcards. Lol. After that we were stuck in an Adidas shop in wheelock place. We both saw a very nice Adidas belt but dont know whether to buy or not. End up only i bought it. Haha. We were tired from walking everywhere the whole day so decided to head home. Talked quite alot in the train back. (: Haha. Accompanied mummy to admiralty station then took the train back
O ya, just now a senior from SP PRIMERS called me up. She asked if i would like to go to a bbq at aloha changi this sat. Its free and i can bring any friends along. But i'm still wondering if i should go and mingle around or not. Haiz.
Anyways i want thank mummy for accompanying me today and giving me comments on the clothes i picked. (: And sorry, make u come out and spend money. Didn know u're trying not to buy things to save money. Haha. I know that i have sinned. I will do 100 good deeds de! I will help 100 old grandmas across the road! Haha.
(:
