What am i going to do about my life now?
Few of my friends' 18th birthday have past made me realised that time waits for no men. Being 18 means that u're almost an adult already. And being an adult means no more fun and games but serious stuffs. Also during this time of planning POC made me realised i still, is, am not ready yet for bigger things. Planning camp isn't easy at all, seriously. I still remember when i went for the very first meeting with Huishan and Paul, i knew it was going to be tough. And now when the camp is in a month's time i realised this, THIS IS SERIOUS SHIT. (thought i should emphasize on this)
Looking back at 17 years of my life i realised i have never taken much of the the things i do very seriously. I have to admit, i still act like a kid most of the time. And i prefer being taken care of then me being the one taking care of other people. I guess that explains why i'm attracted to older girls? Maybe i need someone who is matured and stuff since i'm the complete opposite.
But all that is going to change. I'm going to take things more seriously now and not fool around. Start thinking what i'm going to do in the future. (very important) Since after all i'm going to be an adult soon. And i know i can't just change like that overnight. But then again, i got a month's time.
Its funny how when u are attracted to someone and she doesn't gives u her full attention and when someone u are not really into keeps trying to get your full attention.