As much as i enjoy each and every time spent with her, i really really must remember this. There's still someone who has her in his heart. And i believe that he is in her's also. Even though their status now is not of a normal relationship, but still.

Right now i really feel like distancing myself. Like how i did about a year ago to a potentially great friendship, which i regretted, very much. The old me would just cut off all ties to avoid the problem. But i won't do it anymore. Because i know running away from the problem is no use. Sad to say i only realise this now.

Sometimes i feel that i'm really dumb. I always do things when i know that its wrong. Its like i know there's a deep hole right in front of me but i still decide to take a step forward. And the funny thing is, this time however i have choices. Quite a few actually. So i guess i'll just take one step at a time and see how it goes.