I'm very tired.
Mind, body, heart and soul.

Been doing the same exact things for days. Or maybe even weeks. Wake up, go work, come home, go out again, come back, sleep, next day wake up,.. Its ok when i go out everyday after work and come back late in the night if i'm able to get what i want. But the problem is that i'm not gaining but losing everytime i go out. I will come back empty handed. And i have to spend every other two days topping up my ezlink card.

I'm not blaming anyone or anything but i was just wondering if life's just like that. No matter if u're happy or sad, time still passes the same. Time wont slow down for u when u're happy or passes faster whenever u wishes it would. When i was in the mrt to work today, i had a sudden feeling of tiredness. Or should i say extreme tiredness. Its like i never slept at all for the pass 16 years and 8 months.

As much as i hate to carry on doing what i'm doing. I have to continue. And while i do that, i'm waiting for that day to come. That day is the only thing that keeps me going. I thought of many things we can do. Hope she'll enjoy herself on that day.

Maybe this is the feeling of trying very hard to find something that's not there..



*Then I see you standing there,
Wanting more from me.
And all I can do is..
Try